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• i’m tired of this feeling
• i know it all too well
• i just want stability in my life for once
• i know nothing lasts, but i’m so tired of this fucking feeling
• it’s like the only constant thing in my life
• i can’t stop comparing myself to other people - i can’t
• i am quickly becoming self-loathing
• where did my self-confidence go?
• where did my confidence in anything go?
• i hate the night when i’m sad
• i hate transitions
• i wish i could just jump from moment to moment in my life
• none of that in between shit
• just like the movies
• it would make me really happy if someone watched josie and the pussycats or the lizzie mcguire movie and fell asleep with me rn
• shut up i’m listening to ‘chick flick songs you know all the words to’ on 8 tracks
• i know this sadness won’t last, but goddamn it’s hitting fucking hard
• i am miserable, and i have no reason to be
• srsly fuck being angsty, can i just be old and content already?!

something is wrong with me

Sweet baby Jesus, I am getting $40,000 from St. Ed’s for next year - Guess who’s NOT paying for college freshman year?! Uhg I am so happy. Thank you, dad for going to cooking school and thank you, mom for making me wait to send in my decision.

I can barely contain this excitement omg :)))))))

Everything happens for a reason, guys. I swear.

• starting to run again
• thinking about training for the half marathon i might run in the philippines this summer? :O
• i’ve been drinking green or peppermint tea every night
• trying to get more sleep… lol not succeeding
• trying to cut back on social networking… lol slowly getting there
• getting yoga back into my routine
• cutting back on unhealthy/sugary/fatty foods
• got my job back
• pursuing other jobs
• planning to save up money
• spending more time with my sister
• taking one day at a time with you and everyone in general
• trying not to worry so much… lol
• being happier

• anthropologie, why are your catalogs always so perfect
• i would live in one if given the choice
• i need to start saving money for college or w/e
• i want to start gaining weight
• i still can’t believe it’s april
• where did winter go? what was winter even this year?
• i really want to go shopping for spring clothes
• Gambino, Reggae Fest and prom to look forward to this month~
• awwwwwwwwwyea~

• ;3
• The weather was fantastic
• Prom dress: Check!
• Found a new coffee shop
• Ordered a Medio gelato instead of Piccolo
• Got to see Brinnay and Alicia
• Mrs. Tan’s Pad Thai
• Little Big Planet
• Found out Season 5 of 30 Rock is on Netflix
• Watched the Hunger Games
• And now I’m about to watch some 30 Rock
• :*

there is too much shit going on right now and it’s all good and bad and idek whether or not to be happy or sad or what. i hate feeling in between - it makes me start to not care. i would rather just be one or another. apathy’s a bitch.